Dear all
I wrote this post when I was depressed. It is supposed to publish itself automatically after 24hrs of me not logging on. I defer posting everyday to ensure that u do not read it. So if you did, then it probably means I am dead. If you read it then It means that at some point during my life you mattered to me. There is a possibility that at the time of my death we weren’t pretty close, or even on good terms. But If this reaches you it means I am no longer alive. Just wanted to say goodbye, and my life no matter how long or short, was pretty much worth it, and your presence in it probably contributed to that. I don’t want you to be at a loss that I am gone. I am probably at a better place (if it isn’t better then it’s the place I deserve to be in so don’t be bothered) I want you to move on. Im just an ordinary person that happened to die today. Just like the hundreds who die every day, I ain't better than anyone who died on a day you were happy in. but trust me today is a beautiful day cause today is someone's birthday , some other dude will get a promotion today , as will someone get a new car, get married , fall in love or become a parent. So instead of joining the misery of my parting I would ask of you to join the jubilation someone is celebrating.
Take care of my parents, they had nobody but me, they might be hard to deal with, but trust me deep inside they are beautiful people. Go do that thing you have been delaying for ages because like I expected to do a lot of things today I will never have the chance to do them, and the same thing will happen to you someday. Reconcile the differences you have with people but were afraid to settle them. Do that thing you were always afraid to do but wanted to do someday. Life is short, and ends when u least plan for it.
If there was anything between you and I that I failed to resolve before my demise, I am sorry, if I ever hurt you or bothered you when I was alive I am also sorry. I ask not of forgiveness, but of understanding ; that I was foolish to think that I would live forever, and someday I will fix my screw-ups. If you are someone who did me harm during my life, I want you to not live one more minute with remorse because I have forgiven you before I departed and I want you to make the best of your life, and there's no time for you to drown in the sorrow of your mistakes , just move on and learn. Make the best of every moment we automatically tend to take for granted.
Life will always have its sweet moments, and its sour. It has an equal balance of both to suit your perception. Filter out the sour and focus on the sweet, it’s all a state of mind. We will never appreciate what we have until we lose it. Not because we're ungrateful and not because we are blinded, but because we need an ending in order to evaluate. You can never judge a movie until its over, the same thing applies to life and trust me all of us out there have lived great movies. Our endings might be abrupt, dramatic or even shameful but that’s just the end, if that’s the case then it is compensated in the other 119 minutes before the end but whatever you do, don’t be selfish and cry and moan that I am gone, I'm somewhere better now and soon you will be too. All I ask of you is that if you ever remember me during the rest of your lives I'd like you to smile when that happens, and go along with what you were doing, chances are its going to happen when someone is around to see that smile and it will make a difference in their day, so will it in yours as well. If you wish to do more than that on the anniversary of this day then playing "Moondance" by Michael Buble or Van Morrison is all I ask…no visiting graves, no wearing black for God's sake let me rest in peace, I'm a member of the omnipresent realm now, u don’t need to come to me, I will come to you.
I hope I contributed in your lives as much as I wanted to and I am confident you will all make me proud of being a part of your lives no matter how little.
Temporarily missing you , until we meet again live la vida loca,
See ya..
a Dead Man
I wrote this post when I was depressed. It is supposed to publish itself automatically after 24hrs of me not logging on. I defer posting everyday to ensure that u do not read it. So if you did, then it probably means I am dead. If you read it then It means that at some point during my life you mattered to me. There is a possibility that at the time of my death we weren’t pretty close, or even on good terms. But If this reaches you it means I am no longer alive. Just wanted to say goodbye, and my life no matter how long or short, was pretty much worth it, and your presence in it probably contributed to that. I don’t want you to be at a loss that I am gone. I am probably at a better place (if it isn’t better then it’s the place I deserve to be in so don’t be bothered) I want you to move on. Im just an ordinary person that happened to die today. Just like the hundreds who die every day, I ain't better than anyone who died on a day you were happy in. but trust me today is a beautiful day cause today is someone's birthday , some other dude will get a promotion today , as will someone get a new car, get married , fall in love or become a parent. So instead of joining the misery of my parting I would ask of you to join the jubilation someone is celebrating.
Take care of my parents, they had nobody but me, they might be hard to deal with, but trust me deep inside they are beautiful people. Go do that thing you have been delaying for ages because like I expected to do a lot of things today I will never have the chance to do them, and the same thing will happen to you someday. Reconcile the differences you have with people but were afraid to settle them. Do that thing you were always afraid to do but wanted to do someday. Life is short, and ends when u least plan for it.
If there was anything between you and I that I failed to resolve before my demise, I am sorry, if I ever hurt you or bothered you when I was alive I am also sorry. I ask not of forgiveness, but of understanding ; that I was foolish to think that I would live forever, and someday I will fix my screw-ups. If you are someone who did me harm during my life, I want you to not live one more minute with remorse because I have forgiven you before I departed and I want you to make the best of your life, and there's no time for you to drown in the sorrow of your mistakes , just move on and learn. Make the best of every moment we automatically tend to take for granted.
Life will always have its sweet moments, and its sour. It has an equal balance of both to suit your perception. Filter out the sour and focus on the sweet, it’s all a state of mind. We will never appreciate what we have until we lose it. Not because we're ungrateful and not because we are blinded, but because we need an ending in order to evaluate. You can never judge a movie until its over, the same thing applies to life and trust me all of us out there have lived great movies. Our endings might be abrupt, dramatic or even shameful but that’s just the end, if that’s the case then it is compensated in the other 119 minutes before the end but whatever you do, don’t be selfish and cry and moan that I am gone, I'm somewhere better now and soon you will be too. All I ask of you is that if you ever remember me during the rest of your lives I'd like you to smile when that happens, and go along with what you were doing, chances are its going to happen when someone is around to see that smile and it will make a difference in their day, so will it in yours as well. If you wish to do more than that on the anniversary of this day then playing "Moondance" by Michael Buble or Van Morrison is all I ask…no visiting graves, no wearing black for God's sake let me rest in peace, I'm a member of the omnipresent realm now, u don’t need to come to me, I will come to you.
I hope I contributed in your lives as much as I wanted to and I am confident you will all make me proud of being a part of your lives no matter how little.
Temporarily missing you , until we meet again live la vida loca,
See ya..
a Dead Man
1 comment:
I love you man.
Your words touched me in a striking way.
You are not a dead man.
You will always be alive; even when the time comes.
This is one scary post.
I love you one more time.
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